I'm kinda a deep thinker. My problem is i can't word things right to put down on paper.  But one thing i have been thinking about is how God talks to us. I've never been one where i actually hear a voice, and i think that's been really misrepresented. I don't know anyone who has said they hear voices, and for the longest time i felt like a failure because i didn't hear voices ( am i only the one wanting signs of schizophrenia??!!) But it took a hike with a good friend to realize, God meets us in different places. For me it's when i'm walking in the woods, or in a really quiet place. Maybe that's why i love nature and being outside so much, because it's the closest i can get. The complexity of society distracts me and the only place i really feel quiet is out in the woods, far away from the hub of civilization. In Romania this summer it was like that... unplugging and simplifying. I can kinda understand why so many authors got away... wasn't  it Thoreau who  left and lived out in the wilderness... on walden pond or something like that..... it makes so much sense though. Sometimes i just want to run away.... forget school and forget careers, just be a hermit working a crappy job that enables me to be gone and i don't need to stay in school for YEARS . I have heard about people doing that during the summer, its through the navigators, where they work low paying jobs over the summer and their goal is to minister to their coworkers. I feel like that's what our life is supposed to be like, completely focused on God, not our careers, not relationships( that's me, i'm HORRIBLE at not focusing on that, or lack of that ha). I've worked at Camp Barnabas, and possibly a Kanakuk Kamp this summer( we will see...) and i  know it's like a bubble. But life isn't supposed to be like that! We are supposed to live like that every day. I hear everyone loves working at Kanakuk, that the people are awesome. And it's supposed to be like that all the time! I think some of it has to be with being AWAY for so long.. you forget gossip magazines, fashion styles ( all you wear are modest shorts and covered shoes----no coach or ralph lauren in the woods)... but really, what if life was like that all the time?? Sometimes i think college kids who work at these camps are clique-ey... but i think maybe it has to do more with the fact that they know what life is supposed to be like, so simple and completly relying on God, not ourselves. Once you get a taste of that, you never want to go back, and you want to share that with everyone who has also experienced that... Anyway those are my RANDOM thoughts for today... all over the place i know. P.s. election day is today... how do you vote ethics vs reason? abortion vs war?  economy vs gay marriage? I almost don't want to vote... because my ethics are with mccain, but my common sense is with obama...  is fair to force my religion on those who don't believe? once agian... maybe i will just move to colorado and  forget this life.... ha but lets be serious, i would never do that.